“I automatically assume people won’t like me, so I don’t talk to them unless they approach me first. I can’t become a part of a crowd because I can’t get past that feeling that I don’t belong.”—Stephanie Kuehnert, Ballads of Suburbia
This is my entire life in a quote.
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There is a terrible emptiness in me, an indifference that hurts.
if i got cancer everybody would give a fuck. who cares until something bad happens. thats how people work, when people think you’re doing well nobody asks any questions.
which is worse: hell or nothing?
No matter how much you think you love somebody, you’ll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close.
(Source: 8yrs)
I’d die if it meant it would make the world happy. And I don’t just say that i fucking mean it. I would give anything to make people’s life more positive. we live in a society where people think serious depression or anxiety can be fixed by thinking happy thoughts. or that eating disorders are simply a matter of eating right. thoughts can be demons drugs can’t fix. it doesn’t help that we still live 2,000 years ago. i thought we had come to a point in human existence where there would be an understanding that there are dark places in the psyche that control us more than our will power does, but i am wrong i guess.
I don’t want to die without any scars.
On a long enough timeline the survival rate for everyone drops to ZERO
‘But of course. Everyone must look out for himself, and the best time is had by those who’re best able to deceive themselves.’
torialexa13 asked:
Your text post is probably the truest thing ever :/which one are you talking about? the one about being socially awkward?
its great and sucks at same time that i can catch you in lies easily. and you don’t even know i can do it. you have no clue how powerful reading body language is. alright i’ll play stupid cause i do it so well.
And he explained, so absurdly simply, that if there’s nothing you can do about something, then you do nothing. And in that moment, the feeling of injustice, the frustration, it was lifted, it was gone, there was nothing to do. I realized I’d made it up, I’d made it up that it was an injustice, I’d made up the frustration, it was all a story. And it’s the same with the past, you can’t change the past, there’s no need to heal it, it’s only a story that you’ve created. All you can do is let go of the story. You can’t change yourself—all you can do is let go of the story of who you are, let go of the character that you’ve created from fear.
(Source: menspraetrepidans)
When I say “I fear” — don’t let it disturb you, dearest heart. We all fear when we are in waiting-rooms. Yet we must pass beyond them, and if the other can keep calm, it is all the help we can give each other.
